well, here it goes. 100 things...about me(and any other comments that came to me while sitting down to do this!!)

1. sandy started it! janice double dog dared, so i am writing this or at least giving it a shot!

2. i love God.
3. i am so thankful that he loves me.
4. i know he loves me and i accept his love.
5. i have not always truely believed that or accepted it.
6. i ADORE my husband.
7. i really like his eyes,
8. and hair,
9. and voice.
10. but most of all i love his authenticity!
11. i admire his passion for God and the people of God and those who don't know God.
12. i am sometimes a little jealous of him because he is so gifted.
13. i love my children!
14. i love micah's compassionate heart and desire to do good!
15. i love anna's passion for life and her ever present positive outlook on life!
16. i love rebekah's fullness of joy. when she smiles her whole body participates!
17. i want to be a good mother mostly for their sake, but selfishly i want to look back on a job well done.
18. i want more than anything for the three of them to live their lives fully in love with God and knowing how much they are loved by HIm and accept his love.
19. i also want them to love people and know they are loved by people.
20. i want to love my children unconditionally and i want them to know that and trust me in that.
21. i am a tennessean by birth and heart. Go vols!
22. i grew up on my grandmother's 125 acre farm.
23. i used to wish i could have that old farm house that we used to live in when i was little and refurbish it to its original design.
24. i think if i was able to do it, my grandmother would leave it to me in her will.
25. i love my humble roots and would not have wanted it any other way.
26. i'm glad i didn't have everything i ever wanted growing up.
27. i wasn't so apppreciative when i was growing up :-).
28. i won first place in the county for my biscuits in fifth grade 4-h,
29. i won first place in the speech contest in sixth grade 4-h. it was about the american flag. i quoted lee greenwood's i'm proud to be an american song at the end!
30. yes, i was, and still am a brown noser when i have to be :-)!
31. i was not popular, but desparately wanted to be in elementary school.
32. i was, though, by the time i reached jr. high. at much to high a price!
33. i cussed a boyfriend who had just broken up with me the day after valentines day in the sixth grade and later lied to my teacher about doing so. of course she believed me over him. i was the brown noser.
34. i still wore childrens sized clothing when i was in jr. high and was painfully embarrassed about having to wear jeans with elastic in the waste while the other girls were wearing junior sized clothing without elastic in the wasteband.
35. i was the ultimate cause of my 7th grade math teacher getting fired on the spot after he gave me a paddling for talking in class.
36. i have always felt guilty for him losing his job.
37. to my defense, he was crazy and had never had control of the class. he walked in that day and decided he was going to give a paddleing to anyone who did not obey his every command. i was sick with an ear infection and did not hear his directions and whispered to the person in front of me what we were suppose to be doing. he decided he was going to make an example out of me to prove to the class he was going to follow through with his word. i was devastated. i never saw him again.
38. i loved high school and really "came out of my shell".
39. i had mono my sofhomore year and was out of school for about two weeks.
40. i made lots of bad choices in high school. and some pretty good ones.
41. i dated lots of guys until jason--my biggest mistake ever. we started dating the night his grandfather bailed him out of jail for riding in a car intoxicated and carrying alcohol with 4 other guys. should have been a red flag to me, but....not soon enough.
41. i was treasurer of my junior class and president of my senior class of over 600 students.
42. i did many other clubs, newspapers, yearbook...you name it i was on it and possibly even president of it.
43. it was horrible and i would never do it again. i almost lost my sanity trying to do it all and for...not much with lasting value.
44. i was voted for 10 different superlatives in my class but had to choose the one i most wanted to be remembered for and let the next people in the vote be the other superlatives. i chose spirit of '96 over most likely to succeed and many others. i knew others deserved them more.
45. i attended tennesse girls state and was chaplain of the house of representatives.
46. i was the gold medalist for my class which is probably the highest honor given each year to a student.
47. i was #19 in the top ten percent of my class of 600+ students.
48. i had over 10 scholarships for lipscomb when i started.
49. i started dating bret my senior year of high school. (one of my better choices)
50. i went to lipscomb university for 3 years and had 90 hours credit in education and bible.
51. i almost didn't have a wedding dress for my wedding because of limited budget until my precious fiancee took me shopping at a bridal shop that was going out of business and bought me one. after seeing me try a dozen on he helped me choose the one i wore for our wedding.
52. i got married when i was 18!!!
53. the first 6 months of marriage were A LOT harder than i expected but i didn't have anyone to talk to about it because none of my friends were married yet and our families, well lets just say they were still dealing with it too.
54. i wanted to become a youth minister and team minister with bret.
55. it didn't happen when we moved to reidland and i was so angry at god i could scream!!!!! i was and, at some degree, still am dealing with an identity crisis of who i am supposed to be and what i am supposed to do.
56. i loved my role as a youth minister's wife.
57. i REALLY miss youth ministry.
58. we've worked with 3 different churches in our marriage.
59. i have loved them all.
60. leaving a church (mainly reidland) is the hardest thing i have ever had to do. it felt like i was ripping vital part of my heart completely off. that is why it is so hard to start at a new church. i feel a little gun shy and am afraid of developing relationships that one day may make it hard to have to do that process all over again. i have to "prove" myself all over again.
61. i am starting to mend.
62. i have had four different address in less than two years.
63. i hate packing and moving.
64. i like unpacking and making a new place. i love to see how all my old stuff takes on a new look in a new place.
65. i love my new house. it is probably as close to a dream home i ever expect to have.
66. i have always secretly dreamed of becoming a christian women's speaker on the circuit for retreats and conferences.
67. i love speaking to an audience.
68. i feel bad for not finishing college.
69. i am determined to finish within the next 4 years.
70. i don't know what i want to be when i grow up other than a mother and wife.
71. i am learnig that aspiring to be a good wife and mother is much more of a lofty and honorable goal than i had once given it credit for being.
72. i think i would love homeschooling, but i also want my children to have a public school experience. especially since we are not near any family. all they hardly ever see is me and church. i want them to know how to experience the world without me. i will be there every step of the way and encouraging and helping them along, but...i don't know. i am going to let next year be a test. micah goes to kindergarden at our neighborhood school across the street. it is an awesome school in an awesome school district. we'll see...
73. i am terrified of water. if i could change one thing in my life, it would be that. i would learn how to swim. mostly because i feel vulnerable that i could not save my children if they needed me.
74. i just recently found out i have graves disease, which is not good, but much better than the alternative possibilities. it is not curable, but it is treatable and it is a name for what i've been going through, which means much more than i ever thought it would.
75. i am currently planning my ten year reunion and i am failing miserably. maybe i will do better tomorrow.
76. i love to decorate.
77. i am sad i am not going to have anymore children.
78. i was on bedrest with my last two pegancies and would not have made it ahd it not been for close friends and my husband.
i would like to adopt some children someday....after bekah is in school.
79. i love to sing, but am no where near as good as my husband when comes to ability.
80. i love chips and dip
81. and dr. pepper
82. my favorite restaurants are on the border and maccaroni grill.
83. i love going on dates with my husband
84. i secretly ould like to take advantage of being in my twenties and not being pregnant anymore to be as sexy as i can be before i get too old to care. can i be too old to care?
85. i'm glad i had all my children while i was so young.
86. i will be 44 when rebekah graduates from highschool. that's when i'm going to finish out all my degrees and get on that speaking circuit!!!
87. i love going on vacations.
88. i especially love romantic vacations.
89. i like cleaning house, but hate it being destoyed behind me.
90. i love to organize and think i should become a personal organizer for a side job.
91. my parents are still married and celebrating thier 30th wedding anniversary this year. i am very lucky.
92. there were times i didn't know if they would make it.
93. i want to have an awesome marriage. so far we have. i keep praying it continues.
94. i can be mean though most people can't believe me. just ask bret, micah, anna, and bekah.
95. i hate being the bad guy.
96. i can't stand for anyone to be mad or dissappointed in me. especially bret.
97. i usually apologize within 5 minutes of doing something wrong.
98. i have wonderful friends.
99. i can't believe i did it...100.
100. i will be livid if i lose this and it does not post!!!!!!
101. i do promise to get a picture of my hair....eventually!